In stress hell...............................

It's been a horrible day!

Firstly Ross woke up in the middle of the night screaming, which is really unusual for him. Took ages to calm down and go back to sleep. I woke up again at 7am and decided i could have another hour, and anyways Ross was sure to wake me up!

9.35am i looked at the clock and frieked as I was supposed to be at a school meeting at 9.30! Where was my usual wake up call from Ross?? He was being a perfect angel and playing quietly in his room with his lego! on the one morning I was counting on him coming through demmanding breakfast!

10am telephone rings, it's Ross' godparents saying they will be here in 10 mins to drop off an anniversary pressie! i had to rudely wake hubby..... started his day in a total grump mood.

After they left I thought we would go get the shoping done, ah how wrong could i be! By this time Hubby is in a total mood and all he wants to do is sleep. I finally managed to get everyone fed at lunchtime and peeled away from the TV at 3pm! only to get to the supermarket to find them out of stock on loads of stuff...... Now I'll somehow need to get major shopping between leaving work at 6pm and picking Ross up at 6.45pm on monday (that's gonna take a miracle as I travel 35mins)!

Well after we got home Hubby is still in a rubbish mood (I know he's stressing about monday), and spends the next few hours moaning and yelling at Ross for minor stuff. I swear i'm fed up of the nit picking sometimes. i understand his upbringing was different from mine, but I'm afraid I just can't get with the heavy handed attitude over clearing plates at dinner etc. (I have to admit I also don't agree with it, and to an extent blame it for greg being overweight!).

OK gripe over, it's well after midnight and i'm going to try to get some sleep. hubby is working tomorrow so maby i'll get some scrapping done to calm me down a little.

TTFN. Oh and thanks for reading the drivel!

Getting a little stressed now....

I've not been blogging much recently about what's been going on in my private life, mainlt because its a bit hectic and more than a little scary.

Earlier this week hubby had a visit at the hospital to be evaluated for possible stomack surgery to help him loose weight. After he was weighed and measured from every possible angle the doc considers that he needs to loose between 50 - 60kilos. That seems like a huge ammount to me. I know he's big but honestly I'm not sure that are taking into account how broad he is. I've seen photos of him as a kid and he has always had the most huge shoulders!

Of course this visit was only a first step, now he has loads of tests to do and xrays, and scans, and specialist visits, and nutritionalists, and, and, and.....

Next Monday he is going into Hospital to have a procedure to see if he has any apparent blockages into/out of his heart. If he does they will put in place one or more stents to open the arteries. We have both been pretty calm about this on the surface but I can be honest here and say that inside I am absolutely petrified. He has had so many health problems and is allergic to iodine which they use in the op! I'm just frieked that something could go wrong.

It's strange how you suddenly realise how hard it would be to cope on your own. I've no family here, and no-one to lean on in a real sence. Our best friends here live quite a distance a way, there is no sence of "community" where we live, and my work collegues are not the type of people I would easily ask for help from. In a way I'm realising just how isolated I am.

Well here is where I stop whining and admit that I will either be blogging a lot in the coming weeks to vent the rubbish, or I'll be dissapearing totally into my little mad world, so if I'm up to it I may be crying on your shoulder, and if I'm not I'll come back when the cloud clears.

Finally in the mood to scrap

After quite some time where I've been scrapping intermittently I'm actually inspired to get moving again. It could also be due to the fact that I've finally bought new printer ink and new photo paper!......

This week I received an order from Scrapitude with some gorgeous new papers. Once I opened the box I was surprised to see that I had unconciously ordered loads of papers which are autumn tones. it could be due to this that my scrap urge is back. i love the papers and the colours and the patterns.....and....and.

Anyways I finished the first LO using the papers last night, and I think it may even be my new fav (told you it changed daily!!).Oh and I also did a digi to send to my mum!

Late I know!

Last Sundays Sunday Blogger challenge on Scrapitude was to make an entry about your fav LO of someone else and your own personal Favourite LO.

Life kind of got in the way this week but here is a very brief post!!

I love this LO by Jae, in fact I love most of her LOs. They inspire me as they are always fresh and I can totally understand the feelings behind them. Jae is always true to herself in her scrapping and I like that. I love the lines, the layering, the subtle use of inking/chalking etc. Nothing ever feels too heavy or un necessary.

My own favourite LO changes from day to day so it's pretty hard for me to choos one. I may need to spend some time having a thorough look through my LOs again as I really can't put a finger on any one and say that it is truly my "favourite". I could always claim that my most recent is my fav, but that would not always be true either.

Well off to waffle some more elsewhere now. See ya!


Actually I take it back, I love this one. I'm in it which is really rare but something about it draws me to it very often.

What do I like about me????

Truthfully? i'm not too sure.

Scrappyfairy challenged us to Blog about what we like about ourselfs, but I'm honestly finding it hard to think about this. I just spent some time reading the other ladies blogs and I am at least reassured that everyone finds this difficult.

I would have to say I like my personality, I like how I can deal with rubbish thrown at me from loads of different directions, how I've coped with work and stuff in general. I'm tough with a soft center (beleive it or not!!). Not everyone gets to see the soft side of me, a lot of folks only see the "mean manager", but basically cause they are outside of my team and don't actually "know" me.

I LIKE my life in general, we have cash worries, and future worries, and family worries..... but I still like where we are and what we are as a family, I consider that a success. I can't actually anme any physical attributes i like, or would not change if I had the cash or the willpower, but as i really don't beleive in all the physical beauty hype, what does that matter?