Well it's been a while!!

Again!

Over a month since my last blog entry here (I do have another blog on a site I visit.... have to admit I don't update that much more often either!).

It's been a really busy time for me both at work and home so no guilt issues here. I've barely been on the home PC for weeks. I've even been on vacation this week and have barely used the PC other than to sign in to Scrapitudes to check whats going on.

The best bit of my month has to have been getting a new camera! My wonderful Kodak! It's not a full SLR but it's got manual options , which of course I've not yet figured out, or read the manual. I've been getting some great results, which have been pushing me to scrap more, saying that I'm still scrapping slowly, but at least I'm scrapping.

Well off to do some more housework before hubby gets home from work.

here are a couple of my recent photos.

I must be getting better at this web lark!

I actually managed to create and add a lideshow of photos!! bit of a miracle for a web numbskul like me!

All on my own....

Well after two weeks off work... one sick and one on vacation.... I have to go back tomorrow. I don't know what to expect but I'm not hoping for much! In fact I'm kind of dreading it. Oh well my motivation has taken a big knock, but I'll just hope everything has blown over and that I'll be able to get on with work as if nothing had ever been said (fat chance i know but a girl can dream!).

On other stuff Greg and Ross went to the UK yesterday so I now have the house all to myself for the first time in years! it's such a strange feeling, especially at night. I had a really hard time sleeping last night and today feels really strange knowing that I've no deadlines... lunch... dinner... bath...bedtime etc!

So much for ZEN attitude!

Yup you guessed it I've been wide awake since 5am with a not in my stomach, and thoughts of work pouring through my mind again!

Thank goodness we are going out for lunch, maby some conversation with others will help me get over this, otherwise I fear I will have a spectacular blow out tomorrow at work!

Anyways something completely different... my current fav layout is....................

Calming down and looking forward.....

Well I did'nt sleep much last night. I even asked the girls on Scrapitude if i should remove my Blog post. Am I really that unsure of myself?

Thankfully the ladies on the board make good sence. (thanks ladies, you know who you are). I am probably not as out and out mad as last night but I have to admit it still irks me when i think about it, and i have to admit that has still been pretty often today! All in All I'm almost back to my zen attitude, hubby & Ross do not seem concerned so it must not be sowing too much.

Today was a bit of a nothing day, It was beautifully sunny outside and felt like a spring day rather than mid february. Ross had yet another Birthday party to go to this afternoon. When I looked up the adress I realised it was at the other end of the town.. so how to get him there with no car and no pblic transport???? We cycled! It is so great that he is finally old enough to cycle beside me, rather than need the cycle seat (which honestly I could never manage, so it was always on hubbys bike). he was a bit puffed by the time we arrived but all was soon forgotten in the party madness. I almost raced home, it was just so nice to be cycling again.

Once Hubby came home from meeting a couple of friends at Disney we had a nice quiet afternoon together, then both cycled back to pick Ross up. All together a nice restful day of not doing much of anything special.

Looking forward? Well yes, but not necessarily on the work front. A lot of personal stuff will be happening in the next few weeks so I honestly want to concentrate on that, to the point that when my boss called me on my mobile today (to ask directions to a shop of all things), he asked how work was yesterday...... and I just said I would see him monday, have a good weekend ... and left it at that! What's the point hashing over stuff on the telephone when you can't do anything about it anyways until Monday? Yup I'm working on the zen thing again!

Well Blow me but I think I'm going to scream!

Well today was just a nightmare, to be fair the entire week has been one waiting to happen!

I need to write this and if it offends anyone tough luck!

Some folks really Pi-- me off!

OK so why you ask? Simply put you really can't please everyone, especially at work! I've been trying to hand over part of my job to someone who has just come back from maternity leave.... well I knew she was not happy with taking over the particular job, but it seems she is determined to make my life miserable with it!

If you don't agree with my way of doing things, just tell me to my face.... if you want to change stuff do it or check your ideas with the boss.... if you want me to step out completely have the guts to tell me.... basically DO NOT GO CRYING TO EVERYONE ELSE. DO NOT BLACKEN MY NAME WITH OUR OTHER COLLEGUES.

I think anyone reading this has already guessed that all is not well huh! Tonight was the last straw when I was verbally attatcked by one of the folks I thought had more sence than get involved. Well was I ever wrong!

I'm sorry folks think i'm stepping on their toes, but honestly I'm following the orders set out by our boss. When he says jump I jump.... it may not be to everyones taste but i've learned from bitter experience that for me not to have a miserable life i have to take care of myself, not necessarily get involved in everyone else's gripes with the boss. I've had more downs than ups in the last few years, so honestly folks I can understand better than most your frustrations, but at the same time realise that I can only do so much, and it does not include babysitting everyones feelings.

As I explained (or so i thought) I have handed over certain tasks straight away, but for others I've been told to keep involved as i've been in the project for two years which is only just "going live", hence I have a certain historical knowledge of decisions made. Once the flaming thing is working perfectly (or as near as any computer system ever does..), my replacement can have it all, until then it's just plain common sence that I stay involved.

So what am i really saying??

1. its not personal
2. i'm not empire building
3. I don't want work to be a nightmare
4. let's just try to get through this thing withought strangling anyone.....

Yes it's a lot of I, well hell this is my Blog and I'll say what I want.

Oh and for anyone who cares I'm still not scrapping, but I have started to do jigsaws again... My patience needs work at the moment!

Well it seems the Blog bug is back.

After finally posting an entry last night (or should that be this morning?? after all it was after midnight!), I thought a lot about what i wrote today.

It felt really good just to put the words down, so maby I should start doing this a bit more often again. Strange how basically writing to knowone in particular can help clear your head.

So anyway we'll see how it goes over the next few days/weeks. Who knows maby the bug really has bitten again.